I've been meaning to go to the gym, but any more I just don't feel like leaving my apartment to go there. It's crazy because it's free and it's in our apartment office. I just keep using the snow as an excuse. I really, truly want to lose weight, but I hate leaving our apartment. Who wants to put on shoes and a coat and drive to the gym?
I think I may end up just sucking it up and just buying an elliptical. The only problem is that our apartment is small. If I do buy one, it has to be a space saver. I'm afraid of spending the money however, because I wonder if I will use it. I honestly think I would, because when I did go to the gym it was rather addicting. This way, I won't have the excuse that I have to leave our apartment. If I have my own at home, I should use it right?? I sure hope so!
I'm so afraid of spending the money for an exercise machine right now though. Sean's been looking for a different job, and once he leaves Walmart, he'll lose his benefits. I don't want us to be screwed over if he doesn't have medical benefits and something happens to him. That would surely suck!! I want to buy a machine so badly, but I'm just so afraid of spending the money!!
Anyways, I'm growing quite tired of my boyfriend working third shift. I mean, it is good that he at least has a job...but it is so hard on our relationship. I'm tired of only seeing him for a few minutes every day. Even on our days off together, he's still so tired during the day. It sucks. It's so difficult to spend time together when one person is exhausted.
I really don't like eating so late at night either. I know I can fix a separate meal for myself so I can eat earlier, but that can be so difficult. I definitely don't want to just fix dinner and have him heat it up. I know he wouldn't mind doing that, but I just feel awful about it. Some dinners just don't taste good when you heat them up. I know I'm not expected to give him a hot meal, but he deserves it!
It's so lonely with him working third shift too. I sometimes feel like I'm living alone in our apartment. I'm so glad and thankful that I have my cat here. I think if I didn't have him here, I'd go crazy. I have to sleep alone every night. On the nights that Sean is off, it feels so weird. We've been living together for a couple months now, and I'm still not used to it. It's hard to get comfortable when Sean's in bed with me...and it's so hard on him, because he really shouldn't be sleeping at night if he has to turn around and sleep during the day for work. It bothers him, but he still does it. I'm sure he does it for me, which is sweet...but it's so hard on him.
He deserves so much more than working at Walmart. I just hope he knows that I'm only thinking of him when I bug him about looking for other jobs. I know he hates working there. I feel so sorry for him. I really do hope he finds a great job soon. I know he deserves it.
ANYWAYS, I'll stop rambling for now! :-)
0 comments:
Post a Comment