Loving Life. :-)

I'm going to try to keep this short and simple tonight. As it is, it's past my "bed time".....anyways, this weekend was glorious! I got my hair done and also had a romantic night with my honey. Life's sweet.

We really didn't get to do much for Valentine's Day, because Sean had to work that night. I did bake Sean some chocolate chip cookies though. I always try to bake him some kind of dessert for Valentine's Day. It's kind of a tradition for me. We were able to go out to one of my favorite restaurants (Famous Dave's) the day before. That was yummy. Of course we had to get the "Feast for two" on the garbage can lid. I loved it, and there was definitely enough for leftovers! Yay for being fat! Ha ha....Sadly though, this year's Valentine's Day wasn't romantic like I wanted it to be, but that's ok.

We did get to have some romance last night and it was so sweet. I've never had a massage with massage oils, and definitely not with candlelight. I'll tell you it was AWESOME! I loved it so much. It was so relaxing and romantic. You'd think that this weekend was Valentine's Day, but it made up for it. It was very nice!

Anyways, if I'm going to get up in the morning then I better go to bed. Good night peoples! Have a great night! :-)

Giving Up/Tough Times

I've been meaning to go to the gym, but any more I just don't feel like leaving my apartment to go there. It's crazy because it's free and it's in our apartment office. I just keep using the snow as an excuse. I really, truly want to lose weight, but I hate leaving our apartment. Who wants to put on shoes and a coat and drive to the gym?

I think I may end up just sucking it up and just buying an elliptical. The only problem is that our apartment is small. If I do buy one, it has to be a space saver. I'm afraid of spending the money however, because I wonder if I will use it. I honestly think I would, because when I did go to the gym it was rather addicting. This way, I won't have the excuse that I have to leave our apartment. If I have my own at home, I should use it right?? I sure hope so!

I'm so afraid of spending the money for an exercise machine right now though. Sean's been looking for a different job, and once he leaves Walmart, he'll lose his benefits. I don't want us to be screwed over if he doesn't have medical benefits and something happens to him. That would surely suck!! I want to buy a machine so badly, but I'm just so afraid of spending the money!!

Anyways, I'm growing quite tired of my boyfriend working third shift. I mean, it is good that he at least has a job...but it is so hard on our relationship. I'm tired of only seeing him for a few minutes every day. Even on our days off together, he's still so tired during the day. It sucks. It's so difficult to spend time together when one person is exhausted.

I really don't like eating so late at night either. I know I can fix a separate meal for myself so I can eat earlier, but that can be so difficult. I definitely don't want to just fix dinner and have him heat it up. I know he wouldn't mind doing that, but I just feel awful about it. Some dinners just don't taste good when you heat them up. I know I'm not expected to give him a hot meal, but he deserves it!

It's so lonely with him working third shift too. I sometimes feel like I'm living alone in our apartment. I'm so glad and thankful that I have my cat here. I think if I didn't have him here, I'd go crazy. I have to sleep alone every night. On the nights that Sean is off, it feels so weird. We've been living together for a couple months now, and I'm still not used to it. It's hard to get comfortable when Sean's in bed with me...and it's so hard on him, because he really shouldn't be sleeping at night if he has to turn around and sleep during the day for work. It bothers him, but he still does it. I'm sure he does it for me, which is sweet...but it's so hard on him.

He deserves so much more than working at Walmart. I just hope he knows that I'm only thinking of him when I bug him about looking for other jobs. I know he hates working there. I feel so sorry for him. I really do hope he finds a great job soon. I know he deserves it.

ANYWAYS, I'll stop rambling for now! :-)

Tired

It's funny how it's hard to concentrate on anything when you're so tired. I literally feel like falling asleep at my keyboard. This is why my blog is very short today. It's been a very long and tiring day. Maybe I'll blog about it tomorrow, maybe not. When you're tired as hell, you don't really give a crap. I'm going to go cuddle with my kitty and sleep now. Good night! :)

Amanda

I seriously need a best girl friend. It's kind of hard to talk about certain things with Sean. I mean, I'm sure he doesn't like talking about girlish things or going shopping for clothing...and yet, he seems to have to not only play the role of my boyfriend/fiance, but has to be my "girl friend" as well. I've tried to get some girl friends, but I don't really connect with the ones at work. There is one girl there that I would like to go hang out with, but she has a busy life at home with her kids and such. I need one that isn't tied down that I could actually hang out with often.

Who's better to suit the role than my one and only sister? I know practically everything about her and what she's done in life because I've been with her. We've grown up together as close as possible. We played, laughed, cried, fought, and so much more together. I've seen her ups and downs and she's seen mine. The bond of being sisters is so much more than just mere friendship.

I haven't really seen my sister that much since she moved in with her boyfriend. I'm not mad that she moved out. I mean, that's what you do when you get older right? It just sucks that she lives like 45 minutes away. With today's gas prices, it's hard to go and see her. She can't drive, so she has to rely on others to transport her.  I don't mind going and picking her up every once in a while. I am going to do my best to see her, no matter what it takes...

Besides her being my sister, she's just an awesome person. I'm always so wild and carefree when I'm with her. She's so much fun to be around. I really believe that's she's the one and only person that really brings out the wild party girl inside me. I never thought of myself as crazy or wild until she's around me. She's so lovable and caring. Even though I'm older than her, I kind of look up to her. I find myself wanting to be like her sometimes.  It's so crazy how I'm so comfortable around her too. There are no personal bubbles or anything. It's kind of nice to just sit there and cuddle with your younger sister! :)

The point of all this is, I really need to start hanging out with her more. My life would be such more fun and meaningful. I don't need a bunch of girl friends, or even a select few. All I need is my sister, Amanda. :)

The Paw-fect Snow for the Snow Lovers

I never watch the news but was told that it was going to snow some today. I didn't know it was going to be so much. I couldn't tell you how many inches we had, but it was several. My little feet were covered with each step that I took.

It's funny how time changes the way you feel about things. Winter used to be my favorite season back when I was in school. It brought Christmas and beautiful snow. I didn't even care that it was cold. Every time it snowed, it pretty much guaranteed me to have a snow day. This always made me extremely happy. If I had any homework assignments that I didn't finish, I had another day. Most importantly though, I was able to go outside and play in the snow. From snow angels to snow men. It didn't matter what I did to or in the snow. I just had to be out there in it. My feelings toward winter has changed dramatically. Though the snow is beautiful, I really wish it wouldn't come. The cold weather dries my skin, I have to wear layers of clothing to keep warm, get up even earlier to leave my car running to warm it up, and I just hate driving on ice and snow. The only time for me that I would like to have snow would be on Christmas. However, even on Christmas I wouldn't want a lot because too much may cause travel to be problematic. My perfect snow would be just enough to cover the grass and roads....but it's not my world is it?

When it comes to a lot of snow and ice, I anticipate people to call in at work. I've tried to figure out why some people do that. I've narrowed it down to two different types of people. Those who are scared to drive on the snow, and those that just want to use the snow as an excuse. Today's snow and ice wasn't impossible to drive in. It did take me longer than usual to get to work, but everyone knows that you need to leave earlier to allow yourself enough time to be safe. All you have to do is take it easy and drive slow. If you're that terrified, drive like a grandma. Hell, drive even slower and let Grandma pass you up. If you feel like you're sliding on the ice, you're probably going too fast. Once again, SLOW DOWN. It's not that hard people! To those who use the snow as an excuse to call in: You don't deserve the job you have and you are lucky for getting away with it. It's a good thing I'm not a supervisor. I think I would go crazy!

Anyways, since I'm already snug inside.....let it snow, let it snow....and melt completely when I wake up to get ready for work in the morning. :-)

Procrastination

I've been meaning to start up a blog, but I've just been busy with life. Actually, what triggered my memory was when I saw my friend Sarah start one up...You know, it's only when I start thinking about procrastinating about one thing, that I remember other things that I have procrastinated. I have yet to finish crocheting a blanket that I started a year or two ago. I think it's about half way finished. It was supposed to be a birthday present when I first started. Thank God birthdays come only once a year. At least when I say "I'll wait until the next birthday" I'll have almost a year to do it. I've also noticed that I keep putting off straightening up the apartment. I've been meaning to work on it, but have kept myself busy to where I won't do it. I seriously plan on working on it this weekend. We'll see how that goes won't we? There's also working out at our gym in the apartment office. I really do want to lose weight and work out. I just got sick last week and that plan just fell through. I mean, you don't want to eat when you're sick. So how the hell are you supposed to get out of bed, go down a flight of stairs, hop in the car, go over a couple of speed bumps and hop onto a machine for 20-30 minutes? I'm already lazy to begin with. So being sick just makes it even harder. Maybe I'll start all over on Thursday. Maybe. Anyways, I'll go ahead and give my cat his medicine and take my shower....I really should have started doing that earlier...